deactivating hiatus; im back!


okay so, i thought of pursuing this space rather than to abandon it. for one, it has been my domicile and for two, it has been my road to the writing street:)

i'd like you to pay attention as i put into typing what has been on my mind since the other night. i couldn't find time until today.

here it goes...

it's summer, the last day of april, and the last day of school i had for that week. the day before that, i met my teacher at a fast food chain and greeted her. she was one to hone me, the part of me that is articulate and a fluent speaker of this language, the part of me made creative in writings and literary compositions. and then she informed me about my High School Yearbook. i got excited then...

out of the blue the sudden excitement faded, the smile turned into a frown. i gasped. i told myself i was getting old. one academic year had passed and there was nothing to freak out about. i thought again... i was an incoming sophomore in college, then.

right after my last class that friday i went to visit my home. the place was empty but solemn. right at the portals, one security guard (i think he's new) didn't recognize me. so he was a bit cold in welcoming me. i went straight ahead and met another security guard where i was instructed to log in. she recognized me so well and told my companion how kind i am. the simple "mabait yan siya" (she's kind) overwhelmed me.

then i moved forward, passed by the gym where i marched during graduation. nothing changed, though... and a little bit ahead i met our school bus driver. at a few distance, he also recognized me and flashed a smile. when i was nearer he asked me why i was there and i told him about the yearbook. it was so nice of him to lead the way...

finally, i reached the canteen... specifically at the books' section where i could claim my yearbook. without a word, again, the canteen lady recognized me and handed me the yearbook. she didn't even bother to check my receipt. then we had a little chitchat and she told me i'm still that beautiful student she knew back then... i turned my back when i heard someone calling me. it was our school cook. she very well knew of my favorite cuisine in the school and told me to come back and have some of it.

eventually, i walked past my old classroom. i walked as slowly as possible because i didn't want time to bring me back to reality. memories played like a streaming video in my mind. good old memories. i sighed. i was near the gate again... one last glimpse of my alma mater and then i bid farewell.

the reminiscence did not end that way... and one sensible reflection entered my mind. i made a name in that school. a name out of myself. not out of attachments such as achievements and possessions. they remembered me for me and not for what i did and had done. i am popular and known to be the person i am.. and then i was back to reality again... back to being older than a senior in high school.:)
It's fifty-nine minutes down the hour of 8'o clock in the evening, that means i am three hours and one minute close to greeting new year's eve. I am full of Harry Potter and nightmares in my mind that i can't think of raging about how my mom, again, totally forgot me or set me aside as her least priority, she haven't even messaged me nor called since Christmas. You can't put the blame on me in any angle because, i as her only daughter, clearly have all the right in the world to be one of her greatest priority, for one, she hasn't got a new boyfriend, and i no longer have a father. i don't think she's been that busy, she's apparently ignoring me because she knows how little of a mother she has been to me.

I am tired of raging at, crying for and destroying my mood everytime i meet new years just because she does not exist. if she wants it that way, then be it. I won't cry tonight, i will act as if i do not have a mother. after all, i was always on my own.

so yeah, i'm counting down... i can't wait to have a blast on my out-of-this world laugh and with that i will try to muster, with all my might, the courage to be happy ALONE. :D

of course, i ain't alone. i have my cousins, aunts and uncles, who never deprived me of love, care and attention a parent has to give. i've learned to live with them and it seems that i we part, i'd miss them more than my mother.

My mother is sweet, though, giving me all the stuffs i need, i mean, material stuffs. Luxuries, money, gadgets and stuffs. All that except her holistic being of a parent.

Wishing each and everyone of you a happy New Year!

SHOES FEVER

I fancy these! Beautiful shoes take you to beautiful places. :D for those of you who wants to give me a gift, here you go... you have choices.






















year-ender

I am typing as my mind's recalling things because i could not muster enough strength to organize a post worthy to be called a writer's piece.

this is my year-ender, shall we start? =)

My TOP 10 note-worthy memoirs:

1. Entering College life

2. Meeting my new best friend, Louise

3. Going on seperate ways with what i learned to cherish, dream with and live for- my high school friends.

4. Proving myself worthy of and competitive in the new academic arena

5. Being an active staff in a publication

6. being accepted in a decent debate organization

7. Building a more intimate bond with my best friends Edsel, Roland and Marsh through surviving FIGHTS.

8. Meeting my mom, once again in 5 years.

9. Officially cooking for my family

10. BEING SINGLE THE WHOLE YEAR.

TOP 3 RULES BROKEN:

1. Cheating on Major Exams

2. Allowing alcohol in my system

3. Ditching a class

THINGS I WILL CHANGE ON 2010

my FASHION SENSE

my STUDY HABITS

my DIET

my COLLECTIONS

my LOVELIFE

ME.

And...

To all of you, my friends, my family and bloggers out there,

THANKS FOR BEING PART OF MY 2009 AND PLEASE JOIN ME AS I FACE 2010.

A FUNNY SCENE

so today, when i was in the kitchen, trying to scavenge on some food, i met a very funny accident. well i guess, today is one of my luckiest day, sarcastically speaking. I nearly got electrocuted while leaning on the electric stove and when i backed off as a defense mechanism, i found myself beside the fridge, this time, nearly sliding so hard that it nearly rip my legs apart. good thing again, i am lucky to not meet the actual aftermath of a close-to-danger accident. yeah, so i NEARLY got totally hurt, so to speak :D

what's your funny story?